rainy saturday

April showers bring May flowers. Oh wait...it’s still March. Damn. I’ve never been a real big fan of March...

However, I am becoming a real big fan of online shopping these days. I have discovered that I am becoming lazier and lazier as I get older. Okay fine I’m not that bad. I just like convenience. Are you still reading this?

At my friend’s request, I have at last relented and created a blogspot. After all, I do have to keep up with the year long engagement updates. I wish I could write what all I am constantly thinking in my head.

I somehow managed to put off getting the batteries in my watch changed for over a month. That’s annoying considering the inconvenience of not having a watch that actually tells the time far outweighs the inconvenience of waiting one minute for someone to change the battery.

Reason and practicality are telling me to quit, but I have to hang on. That has always been a part of my nature. I am too nice. Don’t laugh, it’s true.

This week has flown by at an alarming rate, but I have attempted to slow down and take in the good things about the week...

How the hell am I too anemic to donate blood? I eat a diet that is ridiculously high in iron. At least I know why I’ve been so freakin’ tired all week. This has happened before, but this time my hemoglobin was considerably worse. They said I should go see my doctor. Being the stubborn nurse that I am, I have no plans to see a doctor at the moment, but if this were you, I would tell you to go see your doctor. I, however, am going to opt for taking an iron supplement and avoid seeing my old, creepy doctor that gropes me every time I come in. haha, don’t ask. Anyway, I’m really not too fond of taking supplements because I think we should be responsible for getting our vitamins and nutrients from our diet. I am apparently not getting enough iron in my diet. Either that or I am bleeding somewhere and have failed to notice. I like to think that I’m a little more observant than that so I might consider eating red meat every now and then. Yeah, that could help.

My coworker gave me a random, thoughtful thank you card and gift the other day. Wow. I’m glad that someone thinks I’m useful.

Where did my patience go? Never mind, I never had any. Somehow, I am beginning to attempt to work on this.

I had a really good dream last week. Too bad it was a dream...

I think I know what I want now. Some things unfortunately are just unobtainable.

I have been eating chocolate from Easter lately. While it is true that I don’t really care that much for chocolate, I have always had a fondness for Mr. Goodbars. That is truly some useful information for you. This blog is perhaps not the coolest thing you’ve ever read, but I am not making you read it. So there.

Straight-forward honesty is such a useful concept. Open honesty. Trust.

Why do we knowingly cause other people to suffer? I have a real problem with understanding this one.

Why do we knowingly cause ourselves to suffer? Self-sabotage. Guilt. Learned behavior.

Self-critical. Self-reliant. Self-sufficient.

The grass is greener, the sky is bluer...

Hmmm, I have been given the choice between a boat tour thing or parasailing. Too bad I have a poor capacity for decision making.

No, I am not wearing colored contact lenses. I don’t like them. I dislike fakeness. Why are people all of the sudden asking me this. Four random people have asked me this week. My eyes are not all that impressive.

My recent poetry has been too private to post. So I will post some lyrics for tonight...

Until my eyes cry out
’til my head is free from doubt
’til my lungs sigh right out
’til I’m wiser

Let the sun
Fall all over me
This life’s not living, baby
If living ain’t free
If I can’t find my way back to me
Let the sun fall down all over me
Let the sun fall down

More ambiguous words to describe even more ambiguous thoughts...

arm veins, slow down-but not too slow, state the obvious, falling out of touch, forgoing the formalities, attractive sweetness, remembering the forgotten, new levels of procrastination, new levels of hope and satisfaction, confusing new people, new inspiration, crooked signs, do no harm, take me away, senseless stupidity...

I just got really sleepy all of the sudden...

Night,

E