Is it springtime yet?

Originally posted on myspace March 17, 2008


I am ready to start a new week. I am ready for change.

Unfortunately, I am not too full of creativity tonight. I am thinking of impending events some of which are exciting and others not so much.

Friend, I love the new blog. I can’t wait to request the Bon Jovi at the wedding.

I should have gone jogging today. It was actually decent weather. If I can finish a paper that I have been unable to start, but am actually excited to write, I think I’ll go jogging tomorrow. Somehow, I have to bake a large ham somewhere in between all of this.

I haven’t colored easter eggs in a really long time. I think I should fit that in sometime next week.

You will all be happy to know that I have come up with a plan that will work to get my book scholarship money that King College has been holding hostage from me. Hahaha, I will outsmart you, business office people. Part of me (the impulsive part) wants to take the money and buy a wii, but sadly there is another part of me (the practical part) that says that maybe I should use the money for books. Damn.

I want to go hiking.

things I love: high hopes, expectancy, insight, halfway mark, second chances, taking the long way, looking back the whole way, overanalyzing, the irreplaceable things, having too much to even try to list...

I did manage to do a few useful things today, but nothing too helpful. I just got done doing yoga. I would have loved to go to the gym, but there is something very unrelaxing about the thought of my pager going off in the middle of class. So, in the comfort of my own living room, I used my back-up yoga dvds that have proven to be a very beneficial gift from a coworker.

regain balance, regain perspective, much too impersonal, freedom to fail, freedom to fall, I still remember, develop some patience, promising prognosis, safe is not simple...

What exactly is self-worth? It’s not as easy to define as one would expect. It’s ambiguous, changes unexpectedly, and is sometimes situational. Don’t ask.

Wow, I’m glad that no one reads this. I’m glad that I am happy. I am glad for a lot of things. We should never stop being thankful. Write that one down, haha.

Okay, I couldn’t decide if I should post the one about doubt or the one about fear. I chose the most recent thought for tonight and as usual the most vague. Here it goes. Don’t hate, it’s an experimental one...


D efying resistance against the disquiet
that lives in our lives when we try to deny it

O bscure in our worldview that becomes distorted
that consumes our once certain minds now left unsure

U nease is too often the culprit created
by those wavering who want the questions to cease

B linded by disbelief regarding our own worth
that threatens the thoughts that prove to be one-sided

T rapped in our troubles and lacking in clarity
that now is needed to examine things clearly