I am certain I'll be sleepy tomorrow

Originally posted on myspace March 8, 2008


Today was a good day. It has been a good week. It has been a good year so far.

I am not good at meeting new people. Hey, at least I am aware of this. Wow, that sounded way too negative. I should stop that. Damn overanalyzation.

I suppose at this point I should admit that I might have partaken in a little too much alcohol while watching South Park tonight. Yes, I know, I am extremely cool. This is going to be longer than it should be and that is okay.

I attempted to order a bathing suit online for the first time since the choices in this area are less than optimal and I do have a couple of beach trips planned this year. I was forced to return the top though because it was very unattractive for me, but I still have high hopes. Don't let me down J. Crew.

I am not happy about losing an hour of sleep tonight due to the time change. I have decided to stay up late despite this because I will most likely be tired tomorrow regardless of the time I fall asleep. So, I have decided to stay up late and enjoy my night off. I just might have to take a nap after church before going to the gym tomorrow.

I think I might have a mild form of narcolepsy. Maybe I just don't get enough sleep, but I get a lot more than I used to get.

I drove the truck a little this week. I cried about half the time I was driving it. Perhaps it was the thoughts that came back to me all too quickly, the song on the radio that doesn't work that great, the seat that was adjusted and was waiting for his return, or the presence that I have to admit was there (in a calming way). too many memories. I think it is a good thing though so I will continue with this crazy endeavor. Do you like my useage of the word endeavor? I do, haha.

I need to plan another trip to Chattanooga before it is no more. I hope my friend's new fiance gets in to a law school that is conducive to adequate shopping, fun times, frozen pizzas, skanky establishments, parkway punches, drunken monopoly, scrabble, and wii-ing, scenic tours, random japanese places, awesome views off the back deck, and funny awkwardness.

I attempted to order a yoga mat today from amazon, but was unable to because I apparently have a problem with indecisiveness. This would be a great birthday gift for me. However, I don't really expect a birthday gift. My sister is going to decorate my half bathroom that is painfully bare for me because I have yet to do it. My mom got me the Harry Potter book set for Christmas and my birthday because it costs more than it should. Are you bored yet because I can go on...

I need to go to the grocery store. I just ate a whole zucchini.

Sleepy. Happy. Aware. Certain. Hopeful.

I am off on Easter weekend. That is both rare and exciting. I think I might make my drunken deviled eggs and sausage balls again in order to retain normalcy among my family. If you want to join me, that could be fun, if not, that is cool as well. I might even blog that night.

My attempt at blogging just got interrupted by a phone call from my bester who is currently suffering from the hiccups.

Some of my thoughts at the moment... (I know you care, so I will be as vague as possible) :

happiness for my friend, funny bridesmaid order, karma, failing at supporting, full circle, too selfish, unable to develop patience, it takes a little more each time, perfectionist, discovering what has been missing, successful group presentations, my new ring that was a gift, mutual love and respect, new people, almost half-way done, my back is sore, vulnerability, freedom, thank you, registration for 5 mile races, I obviously love alliteration, I love a lot of things, continuous revelations, no regrets, nine "free" credit hours, balance, lion chasing, change is good, I need to move someday, so freakin' thankful, I want to go hiking, I want a lot of things, level out...

This is the condensed short and sweet version. If you think you know what this is about, you are wrong. That is all.


I hear that it's hard to heal a hurt heart
but it's time that we try to be apart
i fear that i will be unable to stay
when the love and the loss finally fade away.

I know that it's scary to step out there
but we all have to start someday, somewhere
i go through the thoughts from yesterday
and the love and the loss finally fade away.

I distance myself from your dysfunctional dreams
but so few know all is not how it seems
i resent you too much to wait for the day
when the love and the loss finally fade away.

This has been too long. Good night.

E.