In summary: I should be asleep

Originally posted on myspace February 10, 2008


Well, although it feels late, it is in fact still quite early. Against my better judgment and the recent consumption of the excess champagne from the New Year's festivities, I have made a drink involving vodka and diet cherry seven-up. While I am against the carbonation and even more so against the aspartame, it is readily accesible from my friend Kole's freezer.

Speaking of Kole, it has been a great weekend. All of which has included drunken wii-ing, productive shopping, drinking, conversing, wedding planning (haha), birthday celebration, grocery shopping, and margaritas and spinach quesadillas.

I am typing on my friend's Vaio. She is asleep with the fiance. They both must work in the morning. I, however, do not. I will be driving home while listening to my carefully crafted mixed cd and doing some hardcore thinking. Then it is time for the new socialization thing that I think will be fun and I have interestingly enough been excited about.

Too bad, I must wake up and resume normalcy and drive home. I know it is not bad.

Is it weird that I have recently become addicted to eating crushed ice? I believe there are much worse habits that I can have, but I can't seem to recall where this one came from.

I am hungry. At this point I should go to bed.

I don't deserve this, I am forever thankful, it will be okay.

Smile. Emotion. Damn.

My niece impresses me the more that I am around her. She enjoys the nurse's kit that I got her for Christmas and regularly "listens to my heart" with the stethoscope that was included in the gift. You should be happy to know that Bert the Beta, who was a birthday gift, is a well-fed fish that is still thriving. Also, I never thought that feeding the ducks could be so much fun.

A glimpse into the past is all it takes to make me appreciative of the present.

Will you miss me when you're gone?

We are more alike than you are able to comprehend.

What exactly is intimacy? It is available, in the future, it is fleeting and is not present.

I desperately need to write although I'm unable and it is difficult to verbalize what it is that I'm feeling. I am different. Self-discovery is an asset these days...

There has been a lot obtained from this weekend...

some redman for my new chevy that I am both honored and scared to drive although I hate chevies, japanese fortune cookie fortunes that are all too predictive, stolen chopsticks, increased wii skills that are apparently still not adequate, conversation, escape, a sweet jacket, relief of soreness, best shopping trip ever, a newly soon-to-be betrothed bester, impending beach trips, and I suppose some things that do not need to be listed here.

Unfortunately when i come home I will have to deal with...

work stress, group presentations, things in which at this time I do not wish to complete, change, a dying, neglected peace lily, an unfortunate situation that I am unable to help with, a possible scary situation that I wish to remove myself from, responsibility that i used to welcome but for some reason am now resisting, and more that does not really need to be included tonight.

Life is a good thing though... thankfully...

Night,