don't drink and blog

Originally posted on myspace August 28, 2007

I assure you this won't be nearly as cool as Kole's blog. If I could write like my friend, I too could have my own blog. Until then, I will stick with myspace.

I like school. I am a nerd. An over-analyzing, uptight, annoying nerd.

I grilled some kick-ass kabobs last night. Some of you might have received a picture text of said kabobs.

And now my mood is changing...

interesting feelings tonight.
don't blog while drinking
why can't i deal with happiness
i might delete this tomorrow
what the hell is going on
got to stop listening to depressing music while drinking
why can i not define happiness-have i really never been happy
is this what it feels like
no regrets, thank God

Okay, those were some of my random fairly drunken thoughts of the night. Since I'm certain you haven't had enough yet, I will post one of my newer ones. Although it might sound a little dark and depressing, it is in fact a happy one...

Something is hurting inside of me
Slowly boring inside of me
Holding me hostage despite of me
Keeping me captive inside of me

The same mistake playing in my head
Making the nightmare constantly create
Feelings of worthlessness followed with dread
Realizing it's time now to clear the slate

Something is stirring inside of me
Slowly working inside of me
Forcing me further despite of me
Leaving me lonely inside of me

The same song playing in the background
Forces me to tie the times together
To learn and live as new ways are found
The past enables a future better

Something is changing inside of me
Nicely forming inside of me
Forcing me finally despite of me
Shaping me slowly inside of me

The same pattern playing in front of me
For once has ended to never return
Feeling the difference now finally
Towards the new light I have longed to learn


Good night.