everything seems brighter

I will attempt tonight a necessary effort to return to my vague blog writing. For this, you should consider yourself lucky. This is in no way influenced by the wine that I am drinking. If you believe that, then you don't know me so well after all. In fact, you don't know me so well at all. Okay, fine, a few might.

For some reason, I have had the best week ever. No, I don't mean to reference VH1, but I do mean the best week ever. I am uncertain as to why, but my attitude towards my day to day life has changed this week. Appreciation. Hope. Growth.

Everything seems different. Everything seems brighter.

My attempt to remain positive will prevail.

I wish I could explain it all to you, but when I try it seems as if you will never understand. It is not your fault; it is mine. My words are ineffective.

I am going to Carowinds twice in the month of June. While you are partially correct in your assumption that I must like roller coasters, you are not entirely right. I am not going to explain anymore here.

I feared for a brief moment that I might have lost my ability to remain ambiguous. However, this does kinda conflict with the quality of straightforward openness that I consider myself to possess.

Despite the recent sunburn, I laid out by the pool today. Perhaps that sounds unintelligent, but I like the sun and I wanted to read outside. Freedom. Independence. I don't quite mean the Fourth of July kind.

Fireworks are fun.

I have to be moving forward in order to be happy. I don't need much to make me happy.

With the exception of a very special poem, this is the happiest one I have written to date. Although you do not know what it is about, I do believe it properly coincides with my good mood and it is an appropriate depiction of some recent thoughts.

Walking away
from external worry
I avoid the gray
that becomes blurry

Without a glance
in the wrong direction
I take my chance
that provides protection

Turning inward
emotional release
I go forward
to find inner peace

Seeking solace
that is soon to begin
I find radiance
that shines deep within

Touching tender
in such beautiful form
I surrender
to find my heart warm