happiness and sappiness. enjoy.

"But let it go, live your life and leave it

Then one day, wake up and she’ll be home

Home, home, home"

Hello again and hello to me. We have only met, just recently...

I believe I have talked before about reciprocal relationships (although it was probably so vague that you don't remember). I am finally learning that for every negative, there really is a positive. For once, positivity prevails. I know, I am as shocked as you are. It might have taken longer than necessary to get to it, but get used to it.

The chance to go back. To cancel out. One x One x One.

Maybe happiness is when the positives finally begin to outweigh all of the negatives. Once they have cancelled themselves out, I am afforded the ability to build up the positive experiences...and leave the negative ones behind. There are many, but that is most likely what makes the positives so abundant and so appreciated.

Something has changed and it is drastic - in a really good way. I can't articulate what has changed, what exactly is different, or why I feel this way, but I am different and I am convinced that this is a good thing.

I catch myself smiling for no real reason. I am smiling. I can't help it.

-I know you maybe don't feel like you can, but you can! And you want
to. However, it needs to be when you are ready...I'm not so sure
you'll ever actually feel ready.

I am buying a new computer tomorrow. My current one was a gift to me and it will be given away again.

I enjoy it when people cook me meals.

I enjoy familiarity coupled with newness.

I enjoy reuniting every few weeks.

I enjoy.

There are many pictures that will one day make it to my site. I had an especially disastrous experience at the local Walgreens this week that made me never want to look at another picture again. Although I did receive several discounts, some extra cds, and a bunch of pictures of some family's Christmas dinner whom I do not know and never will know, I have finally received my prints. One day, I will upload them. However, I am more of a fan of facebook these days.

Where exactly did you go? Why so detached?

I am so proud of you. You have always been and continue to be my example of normalcy (funny, i know). What's even funnier is that I needed one...

I think (at the moment), my life:

roses...not the kind you're thinking of, fettucini, freedom, 8%, notepad, gorillas, document!, expanding E, no detachment, texting, positivity, correspondence, permanance, job offers, wedding registries, released...

We don't have to be alike. Eventually we all become the same...

Night,

E