spring forward

"You have been my friend. That in itself is a tremendous thing. I
wove my webs for you because I liked you. After all, what's a life,
anyway? We're born, we live a little while, we die. A spider's life
can't help being something of a mess, with all this trapping and eating
flies. By helping you, perhaps I was trying to lift up my life a
trifle. Heaven knows anyone's life can stand a little of that."

- E.B. White (Charlotte's Webb)

Thank you. You still continuously affect me more than you are able to understand.

Well, good evening to you and what a good evening it is...once again. I am catching up on last week's grey's anatomy and the office while being slightly lazy. Earlier, however, I worked out and then promptly drove to the park to go jogging. The weather was so nice that I couldn't pass up the opportunity. However, my legs are now revolting...awesome.
I just opened a bottle of chianti. That is exciting.

I wonder if the quality of my blogs suffers when I am simultaneously facebook chatting while writing. probably.

I am going hiking tomorrow. It has been a year since I last went hiking. I love the beginning of Spring! Newness is an asset that we all take for granted from time to time.

I still want to join the Navy Nurse Corps. I thought that this desire would diminish, but it is steadily increasing..

And what am I doing here that is all that worthwhile? Nothing but prolonging suffering...and saving the occasional life.

Life is so good sometimes that I have to question whether or not this is me...my life...my reality. I am left to wonder if I could make it better...

I am fortunate to be able to find significance in the small things, and to find hope in the nothings, and love in the somethings...

Things are growing, things are changing...I am resisting, I am running...

But what else would there be? I have become that person.

You are not here, you never were. Should it matter if i am or if I ever were?

Due to my recent computer purchase, my sad Sansa is now basically useless. I plan on giving my Sansa away to my sister if she wants it. Now I want to buy an Ipod touch and have something cool engraved on it. So, if you have a cool idea regarding what I shoud have engraved on it, you should pass it my way..

Two years ago we were strangers. Now, we have evolved into something indescribable. Milestones have been reached and for that I am lucky. How can you expect me to think of you when you are not here?

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you
didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail
away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails.
Explore. Dream. Discover."

- Mark Twain

And now it's time to say goodnight...

E.

mid-month madness

"we cut the legs off of our pants. threw our shoes in the ocean. sit
back and wave through the daylight. sit back and wave through the
daylight."

Happiness. Eagerness. Aimlessness. Randomness. Thankfulness.

The momentum of the year has thankfully carried over into March, making this perhaps the best year of my life so far. I know, I know, there isn't that much competition, but it is still significant to me.

The Memphis trip proved to be even more awesome than expected. My first real experience with carpooling wasn't the disaster that I was anticipating (except for stupidly getting lost a couple of times). It seemed to be a success for all who were involved, but most importantly for the bride-to-be. Here are a few highlights in a few short words:

- "Roofies, what?", drunk dancing, forgotten cab rides, redheaded curse, H2s and Jesus (the Spanish one), zoo animals, fun people, to-do lists and tiaras, jukeboxes, "bad-ass duck", divers, and yes fried pickles.

Your pain = My pain

and that makes me think i care...

i should have been there...i was there...but i wasn't.

It might be time to examine my feelings a little bit.

All in all, it has been a random month / year. Happiness is a fleeting reward that rescues us from reality.

My Honda has been the lucky recipient of an excessive amount of preventative maintenance this year. I think I have spent more money on the upkeep of my faithful Honda than I have on myself, but my Honda is a happy Honda.

I am pretty happy that I was able to find a home for my new tv with the help of an old friend. Is it weird that I enjoy giving things away more than I enjoy buying them? Well, except for that bathing suit that I bought online this week. I noticed that another sports store has appeared in the mall. I believe I once said that I wouldn't go back after they haphazardly placed a Lids in the food court, but now I am thinking that a full-fledged boycott might be in order.

Hold on. I must leave you for a second to kill a spider that is currently crawling across my carpet - very close to my foot...

Okay, that's better. I may have coexisted with a ladybug that lived in my bathroom for about a week, but I refuse to coexist with a spider - although it was a small one. It is important to decide what you are willing to live with and what you won't live with. Ultimately, you are the one in control of such things..if you want to be.

"and in the daylight we could hitchhike to Maine. i hope that someday,
i'll see without these frames. and in the daylight, i don't pick up my
phone. 'cause in the daylight, anywhere feels like home."

Night,

E